Gone forever, my once happy childhood. Even if I try, I cannot come out of this horrific site. Whenever do I try, your smile, the softness of your cheeks rubbing against mine, reminds me of your soul so good and pure. Try as I might, this pain will never leave me. To be able to hold you one more time is all I need. Just once, hold me the way you did. Hide me from the world outside. This loneliness is not what I am used to. It would just have been another day. You'd call me and we would sleep together. The sounds of you snoring, comforting. One more time wait for me, take me to see the city, wait for the ferry to leave your site just one more day. Take me to city cafes, take the last sip from my cup just like you used to. Hold my hand as you ride, give me one more day to be alive with you. This is not how I wanted it, this will never be. Push my hair against my ear, let me tickle you to see you smile, just one more day. This pain is never ending. The warmth of your hands, your voice comforting me, hiding me from everything bad. Do not leave me in the middle of this ocean. There is no way I can get out. The water is getting higher, one more day give me you. Let me curl up in your shoulders and never wake up.
The reality, keep me away from it. I will live in my world, so magical.